World of Jinx

Det är typ lite för mycket i huvudet just nu....
Jag har varit på samma Party som TH!
I HAMBURG!

Ja, jag var där: På THs FanParty!
Det var helt jävla fantastiskt,
och jag skulle skriva en review på Svenska, om det inte var så att jag redan har skrivit en mils lång på Engelska redan.
Så jag hoppas att den duger åt er ;)


Here we go:

You can't really describe something that is truly perfect, right?
There's really no words for it, but I will truly do my best.
Prepare...This will be long, and sorry for miss-spellings and confusions XD
lol
Here we go:

I wont go on about the whole trip and the days before the FP because that's uninteresting really. At least for you to read about ;)

We arrived (me and my three friends) to HünerP at about 4.30.
As you may already know by now, there were already lots and lots of people out there.
It was obvious there were ppl even without tickets there, which some of them tried to sneak in later on. So, what's the deal with that!? I mean come on, give me a break.

Anyway...

The linesystem was barely nonexcisted.
Well, maybe it was, but it didn't feel like it,
since it took like forever for us to get in.
as you also may know by now, they let two and two in and that's why it took forever; with checking tickets and passes and so on.
Even though we stood in that line for like 1,5 hours, I think the security did quite a good job holding it all together...
I was freezing, sure...But still.

So, when we had passed by the ticketcontroll, we went to stand in yet another line to wait for the actual entrance to the building.
*sigh*
I was freezing to death (since I was wearing a short dress) but yet again I understand why we had to wait. It would be too crowded inside too fast if they would have let in everybody at once.
Also there would have been chaos by the wardrobe, so...

Ok,
so we finally got inside, and no my heart began to hit fast and hard leute.
You have to remember, that this was my first time actually standing infront of the guys.
I have been to 6 concerts, but never met them.
So yeah, my heart like left my body or something.

We stood in YET another line, though this time we were actually inside ;)
I met up with mah friends, and met some other Swedish girls and also the UK street team.
There we stood together and shared nervous expressions and words.
lol

I had some things with me to the guys:
For Bill (and Tom really, but I gave it to Bill):
It was a silver heart you can "break" and it becomes two pieces.
The idea was that he should share it with Tom, so they could have one piece each of the heart, as a symbol for them being twins: One heart, split in two =)

For Gustav I had THE most fancy Metallica Cap, and I'm not kidding!
It was damn fancy ;)

Yeah, I'm a bad person; I didnt have anything for Georg. But the Swedish girls we met up with had a Tshirt for him saying: Don't Hassel The Hoff XD
Awesome ;)

Ok, so I was standing in the door, and I'm seeing them sitting there.
I'm telling you; my reaction did actually surprise me.
I was so sure I was going to be at least quite calm and all. I mean, I have of course always known they are PERSONS and HUMAN BEINGS and I have always been focusing on that fact when I think too many are focusing on the "stardom" far too much. They are human beings, and that's that.
But now, it felt like I really understood it for real, and I also realised that I hadn't been understanding it to 100% before.
Because now, when I saw them, it just hit me so hard. I felt like I wanted to cry and I hardly ever cry for stuff like this. I'm usually more calm and yah...you know...
But now it like just *BAM*, hit me you know!?
They are here, they are now and they are human beings!
I tell you, it was so beautiful, and it was almost too much.
They were there, I was there and we were now.

I tried to put myself together before I actually reached to them, and frankly I think I did quite good considering how I had reacted. The fact that I have seen them and FELT that they are such wonderful persons, it was...breathtaking. It was a beautiful moment. Such a beautiful moment...

Ok, were was I?
Oh yeah...putting myself together ;)
I managed to do that, and then I reached Bill.
I tell you, it all went by sooo fast and you really need to grip tight to the actual seconds you were infront of them, and that's what I'm going to do now.

When I got to Bill, I gave him the FanP ticket I wanted him to sign,
and the necklace with the twopieced heart.
I said: This is for you and Tom to share.
When I looked at him, I saw on his expression that he was confused.
But he said "Thank You" and looked at the necklace, but still. He looked very confused.
I understood later on, that he didnt have the time to realise that it was a necklace he could actually make two pieces of. He didnt understand that the heart could be split in half, so I bet he though: How the hell are we going to be able to share this!?
XD
lol

Ok, so I had confused Bill totally, but while I was looking at him, I saw in the corner of my eye, that Tom had his focus on me and Bill and the whole confusing necklace thing,
so I understood that he had seen me giving it to Bill, and that he had heard what I was saying.
When I stood in front of Tom, I could tell that he actually understood the meaning of the necklace, and what to do with it ( and thats prob because he had more time to checking the necklace out, since he wasnt signing something at the same time) because when i stood there,
Tom was looking so intense on me, and his eyes told me; That he had overheard what i said to Bill and that he understood the purpose and that he was liking it ;)
I hope he explain it to Bill later on, if Bill don't figure it out for himself.

That intense look, to get something like that from Tom,
and that special smirk he so often give to girls ;)
You could actually feel the tension.
I mean, there is always something special with looking people in their eyes.
It's like you're being able to watch the persons soul for a bit.

I was looking into their eyes, all of them, and therefor I was able to take small part of their souls. It's like a little window into their souls...
And it was beautiful...It was really beautiful!
I knew that they were wonderful persons even before this, but now it's really settled.
They are all wonderful persons.
I could see it, I could sense it and you could practically feel it. And that's that.

So Tom and I shared a moment of complete understanding,
then it was on to Georg.
Omg that guy is so likable it's almost painful. I like him so damn much, and I didnt think I was going to connect with him as good as I actual did.
He was so kind, and for him to be able to give away such an honest smile...it's impressive!
I didnt have a gift for him, as I said, so the time infront of him went by so fast,
but still it's the most memorable one. I like his soul...Very much!

Then...Gustav!
omg, this is going to be...ok..prepare now XD
so, I had this gorgeous Metallica Cap for him, and I was thinking to myself: I need to try to buy some time here infront of him, because everything is going by so fast and I really want to like hang on to the few seconds I have.
So when I was infront of him, I was practically grabbing the table with my full force, so the security couldnt send me away directly,
and I was putting the cap infront of him,
and then I looked at him firmly in the eyes and said: Wear this Cap Gustav, because I think you will look really great in it!
with kind of firm voice also XD
Then I stared some more, (by this time the security was going nuts on me and wanted me to move on, but I didnt care. I stood by and was still grabbing the table)
and said again: I'm serious Gustav; Wear this cap! You will look soooo good in it!
Then he looked at me slightly confused, and even more scared XD lol
and he said: Yeah, yeah I will wear the cap!
XD
He didn't dare to say anything else XD lmao. I was acting like the most crazy person!
Then the security was like kind of mad at me, so I really did have to leave.
LOL

So; I confused Bill,
shared an understanding moment with Tom,
was feeling likable with Georg
and scared Gustav to death XD
lmao
You need to leave marks people!!!


After signing, we went in to the Dance floor and Party area.
You know by now what it looked like so I dont need to go over that one again.
We were placing ourself at the opposite part of the room as the guys were to enter later on.
So we saw everything quite good, since that place were a few steps up,
as was the guys VIP area on the other side of the room.

I was thinking to myself: Maybe the signing session was it. But then I remember what I have read on the homepage and what i had been told...:
Signing session AND special appearance.
And yah, later on the guys wandered inside the Party room and everyone went complete nuts.
I myself did wish for everybody to be a bit more calm, since yah...This was kind of a special occasion and not really a concert and I would have hope for everybody to act more "less crazy fangirl". But you can't have everything.

You know the deal of the rest right. What the guys (Bill) said and all so I dont need to repeat that either.
But I can tell you what I felt about everything.

The whole party gave what it had promised and even more.
It gave a signing session and a special appearance and we hadnt been promised anything more.
So for the complains I received from many ppl that night, to you i want to say: What did you expect?
For me, this was awesome and beyond.
You got what was told, and more.
I mean: Free drinks!
A dancing Gustav (A DAAANCIIING GUSTAV I MEAN COME ON! That was such a special moment in my life like totally unforgettable!!!!) ,
lots of new friends!

The fact that the guys went through the room and all fans, to be able to get out...
That was...I mean...I was feeling like it would be a bit dangerous.
Though, they did get by safe...Until Georg was leaving the room, and some crazy person grabbed his jacket. You can see that on one of my pictures later on.
I mean COME ON!
They are doing this FP for us, and you attack them!?
They're sitting in the same room as us, partying with us, and you grab his jacket with complete force!?
That's NOT ok!!!!! NOT ok!
I was so disappointed at that person, and for me it's unacceptable!
I hope he didnt get hurt, that's all I can say.

I am a huge Green Day and Metallica fan, and have been for very very long,
so when they played "Basket Case" with GD first, I went nuts of happiness!
I was listening to GD in the same room as Bill! we both love GD and we were partying at their song together.
The feeling was unforgettable.

Then "Whisky in the Jar" went off with Metallica, and I went even more nuts, because they're like HUGE for me, and I screamed METALLICA as loud as I could and danced like crazy,
and then I was looking over at Gustav and I could see him talking to someone with this COMPLETE happy face and with some dance moves. You could just tell he was so happy too about them playing Metallica (even though he may have decided it XD lol ) and to be able to share that with him in some way, was like...It was crazy wonderful, that's all I can say!
I would never have thought that I was going to be able to share the happiness of being a Metallica fan TOGETHER with Gustav.
And now I did,
and even though he may not have seen me...I could feel that we shared it. I mean, it's a fact right:
I'm a Metallica fan, he's a Metallica fan...And therefor we shared the moment =)
Amazing...!


The night was wonderful.
I had so much fun, dancing like crazy, meeting up with ppl I have missed so sooo so damn much, making new friends for life and just having a great partytime together with nice ppl where Tokio Hotel is included!
All the complains I received was both unnecessary and unjustified.
They didnt promise anything more than this, and for God sake they shared Party Time with us all and gave us all a Party to remember! We shared something with them...something so special, and ppl were complaining.
I can't really understand that.
I wouldn't find it in my heart to do something like that even if I would have wanted to!
This band, LOVES their fans SO MUCH and do so much for us all the time!
They're practically splitting themselves into pieces to be able to be everywhere where ppl want them to be,
and it's still not enough.
So for them to do something like this...for us! That is impressive, beautiful and kindhearted!

It was a night to remember.
Right now it's raining outside my window, as in my heart for the longing to be near the boys again...
It hurts not to be near them, but I'm not half as depressed as I thought I would be.
I always fall into depression after a TH concert, and really thought I would do this time also.
But I really havent. Not in the same way. Maybe it's because I could take a part of their souls this time.

So it's raining outside my window, but it's only drizzling in my heart,
and the sun is sneaking by the small raindrops; creating a beautiful rainbow!
Somewhere over the rainbow, where TH is placed,
in my heart!

Thank you Tokio Hotel and their TH Team for creating such a memorable night!
Vielen Dank!
<3


Bilder av Mig, Clarie och Linn!